Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Life is smacking me in the face. And by life I mean illness and death. No not mine, but all around. "they" say its how you deal with the hard stuff that tells the world about who you are as a person. So I am dealing with it all in the best way I know-drugs.
NO silly. Just a little chocolate... and starring it in the face. Being present. Crying. Making a slide show for the Memorial of the dear boy child I never had. Laughing. Listening to music. Trying to not be resentful about who lives and who dies. Cause its chaos theory with a little will from us humans thrown in. Anyway, if you are interested in reading a beautiful but the squeamish be warned/x-rated view of my Baby Brian
Also, a friend had a pulmonary something-she coded 4 times. Was in the ICU. But she was not ready to give up. Or something. (How do we really know what or why) She is alive, I am happy as is her wife of so many years and all her great friends in Seattle and the world. Julia has a recovery ahead of her but she is going to meet that challenge head on.
So Life and Death. Big issues. and still when it comes down to the moment to moment, we forget. We make lunch, exercise, take a shower, go to work, gossip, see a movie, have sex (if you are lucky), sleep (if you are lucky).
Today I take a moment between those other moments to find the gratitude to be around to hear, see and feel all of it. Then, its time to pick a song for the slide show.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Its harder that I thought....
I heard a story on NPR about a former rapper, Run, from Run DMC, had become a Reverend who has his own reality show on MTV and a huge Twitter following, where he gives out his daily words of wisdom-sometimes from his bubble bath.
Well, I thought, what makes his opinion on what words are wise any better than mine? I don't choose to have my entire life on TV, although, I could and it would be interesting- so that got me thinking that I should do something about my idea, vary from my norm of: have idea, do nothing.
so I have started to Tweet my WOW- Words O Wisdom. I have tweeted 2 promos and 2 actual WOW so far. my 79 followers have received the following:
It's on its new U R the 1st to get it! WOW:Words-O-Wisdom frm @debramiller66 following will not be boring, may b enlightening or even funny
Words-O-Wisdom? why u ask? why not? My philosophy is just as important as say...Reverend Run???? Just wait u will not be disappointed.
WOW # 1. Forgive yourself first.
WOW #2.Always use the restroom when opportunity presents: u just never know...
One of the reasons I started this is because I have a lot to say and it is a great challenge to to it in 180 characters. Also because, I am fascinated with the world of Internet celebrities. How does it happen and why? I think it is like everything else: a combination of timing, talent, perseverance, and did I say good timing? Movies made from books made from blogs. Newspaper articles talking about the new power brokers in the fashion world-the bloggers. Imagine success arriving at your doorstep. Knock Knock. Blogger shuffles, bed head and all to open the door to accolades and money.
Well, I have no illusions that will occur for me...but on the other hand, stranger things have happened. To me.
Well, I thought, what makes his opinion on what words are wise any better than mine? I don't choose to have my entire life on TV, although, I could and it would be interesting- so that got me thinking that I should do something about my idea, vary from my norm of: have idea, do nothing.
so I have started to Tweet my WOW- Words O Wisdom. I have tweeted 2 promos and 2 actual WOW so far. my 79 followers have received the following:
It's on its new U R the 1st to get it! WOW:Words-O-Wisdom frm @debramiller66 following will not be boring, may b enlightening or even funny
Words-O-Wisdom? why u ask? why not? My philosophy is just as important as say...Reverend Run???? Just wait u will not be disappointed.
WOW # 1. Forgive yourself first.
WOW #2.Always use the restroom when opportunity presents: u just never know...
One of the reasons I started this is because I have a lot to say and it is a great challenge to to it in 180 characters. Also because, I am fascinated with the world of Internet celebrities. How does it happen and why? I think it is like everything else: a combination of timing, talent, perseverance, and did I say good timing? Movies made from books made from blogs. Newspaper articles talking about the new power brokers in the fashion world-the bloggers. Imagine success arriving at your doorstep. Knock Knock. Blogger shuffles, bed head and all to open the door to accolades and money.
Well, I have no illusions that will occur for me...but on the other hand, stranger things have happened. To me.
Friday, September 11, 2009
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Forced to write-in remembrance.
I just finished reading my friend's blog(http://nolongeranish.blogspot.com/) and decided it was time (almost a year since my last real blog-not that anyone is reading or ever was)
My big fat 9/11 experience.
I was working the night shift for Fashion Week. When I say shift I mean 12 hours. I normally left around 8 am. A model walked in the trailer ("command office") by mistake and, since she was pretty and pregnant I volunteered to walk her to the correct backstage door.
I hoped on the subway deciding to get off at 14th and 6th and walk to the post office to send my girlfriend the Fashion week program. It was a spectacular fall day. Bright, warm filled with potential. I thought, what a shame to have to sleep through such a day.
I arrived at the post office on 12th and 4th avenue and breezed through, just missing a long line that had formed behind me. As I exited the building, I heard sirens and then as I was crossing Broadway I saw, what I thought was an abnormal number of emergency vehicles heading south. I walked down St. Marks to 2nd Ave and the south to 5th St, where I was staying with my ex-girlfriend, Lynn. People started talking to each other on the street. I passed a Mexican delivery man and he said something had happened at the WTC, where he had been only a little earlier. I told him to call his wife to tell her he was ok. I didn't even know what had happened at that point. Arriving to the corner of 2nd and 5th, people were pointing to the tower. Smoke was bellowing out. A man said his wife heard a large crash sound. Some people thought it was the movie people. We turned to go inside the Deli to see if we could get some info from the TV- this is what we Americans and I guess all people now, do, since 1963 and the murder of JFK. One station went out- they switched to the Spanish speaking station and we saw the second plane hit the tower. How ironic. If I had been outside 4 minutes longer I would have seen it live. Instead, I was like the millions of others located outside of Manhattan, watching it on TV
I ran out and up the 6 flights, bursting in and yelling at Lynn to look out the window. For years we took for granted the view of those two buildings. Now we watched them burn.
She scrambled to leave- she worked the days at Fashion and thought that maybe the Tents could be of use-as some kind of triage place or something. it was unclear at that time. As she left she said something to me that never made sense as to why she said it. She said, that building is going to collapse.
She left and I spent the rest of the day going back and forth from the window and my camera, to the TV. Ironically, I did not sleep through the day. About 6:00 I decided to leave and walk to mid town. It was so eerie. many avenues closed to non-emergency vehicles. Shops closed. few people on the street. I cant remember if the gatherings in Union Square had started yet. People were still looking for their loved ones, but not in an organized fashion. I arrived at the Trailer. It was dead. The shows had been cancelled and my job was just to be there. We bought a little TV to get what little info there was. The computers were up and I spent my time emailing to everyone I knew about the day and the heaviness over the city. About 9pm a bunch a people went running by the trailer on 6th Avenue and we were told that there was a bomb threat at the Empire State Building and everyone was evacuated up to 40th st. I was at 41st, but I knew it was a hoax. I stayed put.
The Tent was never used-there was no need. We did collect clothes but I think they were donated to an existing charity-the dead people did not need clothes . Still it was something and we all felt like we had to do something. I think I still do.
My big fat 9/11 experience.
I was working the night shift for Fashion Week. When I say shift I mean 12 hours. I normally left around 8 am. A model walked in the trailer ("command office") by mistake and, since she was pretty and pregnant I volunteered to walk her to the correct backstage door.
I hoped on the subway deciding to get off at 14th and 6th and walk to the post office to send my girlfriend the Fashion week program. It was a spectacular fall day. Bright, warm filled with potential. I thought, what a shame to have to sleep through such a day.
I arrived at the post office on 12th and 4th avenue and breezed through, just missing a long line that had formed behind me. As I exited the building, I heard sirens and then as I was crossing Broadway I saw, what I thought was an abnormal number of emergency vehicles heading south. I walked down St. Marks to 2nd Ave and the south to 5th St, where I was staying with my ex-girlfriend, Lynn. People started talking to each other on the street. I passed a Mexican delivery man and he said something had happened at the WTC, where he had been only a little earlier. I told him to call his wife to tell her he was ok. I didn't even know what had happened at that point. Arriving to the corner of 2nd and 5th, people were pointing to the tower. Smoke was bellowing out. A man said his wife heard a large crash sound. Some people thought it was the movie people. We turned to go inside the Deli to see if we could get some info from the TV- this is what we Americans and I guess all people now, do, since 1963 and the murder of JFK. One station went out- they switched to the Spanish speaking station and we saw the second plane hit the tower. How ironic. If I had been outside 4 minutes longer I would have seen it live. Instead, I was like the millions of others located outside of Manhattan, watching it on TV
I ran out and up the 6 flights, bursting in and yelling at Lynn to look out the window. For years we took for granted the view of those two buildings. Now we watched them burn.
She scrambled to leave- she worked the days at Fashion and thought that maybe the Tents could be of use-as some kind of triage place or something. it was unclear at that time. As she left she said something to me that never made sense as to why she said it. She said, that building is going to collapse.
She left and I spent the rest of the day going back and forth from the window and my camera, to the TV. Ironically, I did not sleep through the day. About 6:00 I decided to leave and walk to mid town. It was so eerie. many avenues closed to non-emergency vehicles. Shops closed. few people on the street. I cant remember if the gatherings in Union Square had started yet. People were still looking for their loved ones, but not in an organized fashion. I arrived at the Trailer. It was dead. The shows had been cancelled and my job was just to be there. We bought a little TV to get what little info there was. The computers were up and I spent my time emailing to everyone I knew about the day and the heaviness over the city. About 9pm a bunch a people went running by the trailer on 6th Avenue and we were told that there was a bomb threat at the Empire State Building and everyone was evacuated up to 40th st. I was at 41st, but I knew it was a hoax. I stayed put.
The Tent was never used-there was no need. We did collect clothes but I think they were donated to an existing charity-the dead people did not need clothes . Still it was something and we all felt like we had to do something. I think I still do.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
So much to do! One week to go rant.
So before my browser crashed, I had this spectacular literate rant, and now "poof!" its gone and that means I have to rake the crags and crevices of my brain and for those of you who actually know me, well, that's gonna take a bit. I think the gist of it was: HOW THE HELL CAN ANYONE THINK OF VOTING FOR MCCAIN???? WHY ARE THESE PEOPLE TRYING TO MAKE ME A SECOND CLASS CITIZEN AND PROHIBIT ME AND MY KIND FROM THE RIGHT TO MARRIAGE? WHY DO THEY WANT TO FORCE GIRLS INTO A WORSE SITUATION THEN THEY ALREADY ARE, ON PROP 2? Ok enough with the caps. I know... this is the reason: THEY ARE MEAN, STINGY, VENGEFUL, MISERABLE PEOPLE. Why else do they want to enforce their world view on everyone else? They, especially the straight men on the right wing, HATE gay men, because they actually get sex. They, of course hate women, even the women. And HATE HATE HATE poor people who apparently don't have the intelligence to get out of their situation, so why the hell should anyone help them? Let's not talk about people who happen to not have a perfect body-well they are just, lazy, yeah that's it lazy paraplegic, Downs, or whatever.
I sure hope that these people pray to their deity that they never end up poor, disabled, disenfranchised in one way or another, cuz it's gonna be hard for me to have compassion for them. But, because I am a progressive liberal and do care, I will. Damn it.
VOTE*DONATE*ACT
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Be Scared, Be Very Scared
10 things you should know about John McCain (but probably don't): (thanks to MoveOn.org)
1. John McCain voted against establishing a national holiday in honor of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Now he says his position has "evolved," yet he's continued to oppose key civil rights laws.1
2. According to Bloomberg News, McCain is more hawkish than Bush on Iraq, Russia and China. Conservative columnist Pat Buchanan says McCain "will make Cheney look like Gandhi."2
3. His reputation is built on his opposition to torture, but McCain voted against a bill to ban waterboarding, and then applauded President Bush for vetoing that ban.3
4. McCain opposes a woman's right to choose. He said, "I do not support Roe versus Wade. It should be overturned."4
5. The Children's Defense Fund rated McCain as the worst senator in Congress for children. He voted against the children's health care bill last year, then defended Bush's veto of the bill.5
6. He's one of the richest people in a Senate filled with millionaires. The Associated Press reports he and his wife own at least eight homes! Yet McCain says the solution to the housing crisis is for people facing foreclosure to get a "second job" and skip their vacations.6
7. Many of McCain's fellow Republican senators say he's too reckless to be commander in chief. One Republican senator said: "The thought of his being president sends a cold chill down my spine. He's erratic. He's hotheaded. He loses his temper and he worries me."7
8. McCain talks a lot about taking on special interests, but his campaign manager and top advisers are actually lobbyists. The government watchdog group Public Citizen says McCain has 59 lobbyists raising money for his campaign, more than any of the other presidential candidates.8
9. McCain has sought closer ties to the extreme religious right in recent years. The pastor McCain calls his "spiritual guide," Rod Parsley, believes America's founding mission is to destroy Islam, which he calls a "false religion." McCain sought the political support of right-wing preacher John Hagee, who believes Hurricane Katrina was God's punishment for gay rights and called the Catholic Church "the Antichrist" and a "false cult."9
10. He positions himself as pro-environment, but he scored a 0—yes, zero—from the League of Conservation Voters last year.10
1. John McCain voted against establishing a national holiday in honor of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Now he says his position has "evolved," yet he's continued to oppose key civil rights laws.1
2. According to Bloomberg News, McCain is more hawkish than Bush on Iraq, Russia and China. Conservative columnist Pat Buchanan says McCain "will make Cheney look like Gandhi."2
3. His reputation is built on his opposition to torture, but McCain voted against a bill to ban waterboarding, and then applauded President Bush for vetoing that ban.3
4. McCain opposes a woman's right to choose. He said, "I do not support Roe versus Wade. It should be overturned."4
5. The Children's Defense Fund rated McCain as the worst senator in Congress for children. He voted against the children's health care bill last year, then defended Bush's veto of the bill.5
6. He's one of the richest people in a Senate filled with millionaires. The Associated Press reports he and his wife own at least eight homes! Yet McCain says the solution to the housing crisis is for people facing foreclosure to get a "second job" and skip their vacations.6
7. Many of McCain's fellow Republican senators say he's too reckless to be commander in chief. One Republican senator said: "The thought of his being president sends a cold chill down my spine. He's erratic. He's hotheaded. He loses his temper and he worries me."7
8. McCain talks a lot about taking on special interests, but his campaign manager and top advisers are actually lobbyists. The government watchdog group Public Citizen says McCain has 59 lobbyists raising money for his campaign, more than any of the other presidential candidates.8
9. McCain has sought closer ties to the extreme religious right in recent years. The pastor McCain calls his "spiritual guide," Rod Parsley, believes America's founding mission is to destroy Islam, which he calls a "false religion." McCain sought the political support of right-wing preacher John Hagee, who believes Hurricane Katrina was God's punishment for gay rights and called the Catholic Church "the Antichrist" and a "false cult."9
10. He positions himself as pro-environment, but he scored a 0—yes, zero—from the League of Conservation Voters last year.10
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